Every week, I receive an electronic newsletter from Runner's World. The latest edition had this advice:

"Pick one race you've never run before and make it your goal to do it. Preferably pick an event that's exotic and requires travel. Make that the focus of your running."

Somebody recently suggested registering for the Suzuki Rock 'n' Roll Marathon held this June in San Diego. I haven't been down there in ages and a visit would be fun. Forty bands will perform along the twenty-six-mile course and Chris Isaak will headline the post-race concert.

While the music and location sounded great, the distance scared me, so I quickly dismissed the idea. I've never done a marathon. Completing one has been a long-term goal of mine, but "long-term" has usually been a euphemism for "far-fetched and totally insane". I've always feared such an endeavor would require more discipline, commitment and strength than I possess.

That was a few days ago and I've been thinking things over. My self-confidence, which makes rare guest appearances, won't let the matter rest. It believes I can be ready for the race if I focus and faithfully follow a training schedule and regimen.

Perhaps I should also consider two other facts. First, I'm not getting any younger. In the future, more than a lingering cough may ail me. Second, my time is my own for now, free of major obligations, available to use as I choose. Who knows how long that will last?

I have until the end of January to decide and register. After that, the fee increases by fifteen dollars. Before I make a final decision, I need to be sure I know what is involved. I can't allow my doubts to dictate my choice, either by surrendering to them or by recklessly rebelling against them.