The Uncanny Ability

I have the uncanny ability to stress myself out over things that have happened and can't be changed. I torture myself with a constant stream of guilt and regret. I replay the conversation over and over, searching for ways I could have said things differently, made things better or prevented the other person from hurting.

This is what happens when I say no and it's the reason why I don't say no enough. I'm still too eager to please, afraid a negative response will cause conflict. I should be stronger and more secure. People are going to dislike me and be angry with me. It's an obvious fact I conveniently forget until somebody reminds me with a smack upside the head.