You are kind and gentle, smart and funny, sweet and understanding. You are educated, well-read, talented and accomplished. That is great and all, but seriously, Are You Hot?
I don't know what possessed me to change the channel, but I ended up watching that show in amazement and laughter. Young people from across the country came to show off their stuff. All of them there to answer the burning question, "Deep down, under all those complicated layers of clothing, are you hot?"
Lots of people apparently think they are. I'm not so sure. I admire people who are confident about how they look. Confidence is appealing. People who think they are all that are rather amusing but quite unattractive.
The show seemed very tongue-in-cheek, showing beautiful people with massive egos and not much upstairs. There were folks who were slapping their behinds, using words like "funnest" and "conversate" and removing clothing to reveal, well, everything. Am I being too critical?
There was one particular girl who went on about how badly she felt when hanging out with her ugly friends. How they must feel that much uglier when around somebody beautiful like her. There was a guy that went on about how he knew he was hot everytime he looked in the mirror or had girls buying him drinks at the bar.
Perhaps my personal preferences are skewed, but there were only a handful of so-called hotties that I actually thought were hot. Someday, I might actually be bold enough to write here about my personal preferences.
Why am I going on about this? I think this show really gets to the heart of one of my insecurities, how I look. It isn't a constant concern, just one that crops up in front of people I'm trying to impress or places where I'm trying to fit in.
I worry that the instant they see me, most people score my face, body and sex appeal on a scale of 0 to 10. I worry that people have a minimum score that I must achieve before I'm worthy of talking to, associating with or getting to know.
I wonder if, subconsciously, I do the same thing. It would be nice to believe that I'm above being initially attracted to somebody based on their looks, but I'm not sure that I always am.
And just so for future reference: Face 3.1 - Body 3.0 - Sex Appeal 2.9.







