Self-Motivation

I am in serious need of some motivation. I want to do so much, but I can't find the energy and drive. I keep putting them off, justifying my inaction with a "would-if"...

• I would eat out, if I had someone to go with.
• I would go running, if it weren't dark outside.
• I would talk to them, if I weren't so afraid.

I need to rid myself of the ifs, these conditional obstacles. There are so many hurdles that I have placed between myself and potential risks. I need to confront whatever I've been avoiding, face my fears, regain my confidence, so that I may pursue my goals, pursue my happiness.

Where do I find the motivation? Where do I find the confidence? I cannot approach anything half-heartedly. If I am to succeed, I must have no doubt. I need to make the attempt. Never attempting something to avoid failure is failure. I need to stop being so passive, a spectator in my own life. I need to participate, be active, do. Do something, do anything.